groomer left after 3 years together

I wake up and all his accounts are disabled. We met when I was 13 now I’m 16 maybe I’m too old for him now or his friends found out about all the younger girls again. He’s made me feel the best about myself someone I could trust and be myself with.. now it’s all taken away.

I was dumb to believe this could actually work out I should’ve known id be another victim in his book . It hurts so bad without him like why would he just vanish on me like that no explanation. I miss him, I’ll never have that connection with someone again.

A part of me wants to go crazy searching and ask his friends where tf he went like he did to mine . He fucking sent me into psychosis doing all this shit trynna find me but then can happily disappear when he wants . It’s so fucked up. I hate him I love him AAGHHH everything is so terrible. It’s a huge chapter of my life I didn’t want closed yet but maybe it’s for the better.

I just needed to get this off my chest and talk to someone about it .