Can't get over my crush.

Idk why dude, it's been 6 months I have seen irl and 3 months since we stopped texting, and the very day she found to reject me was my birthday?!! (coincidence). The thing is that her friend is also my friend and i usually see my crush on her stories or posts, even though I don't usually complain and hate my life, I see her looking so damn gorgeous that I feel sad that damn dude I got rejected and sometimes hate how I could be doing gym, socializing, having fun and stuff but stuck in this JEE prep, but also i gotta be serious as I don't wanna take a drop so these 2 years are just me sitting in my damn room and missing, fantasizing about her, but I'm done dude idk till when this will continue. My CONFESSION that I like her was in front of the class becuz some dude In my class spread ts and I didn't knew that doesn't know that I actually like her, this reached one of the teachers and he insisted to confess in front of everyone, so yeah. 11 Dec 2024 was it. I kinda miss how she smiled and blushed when people teased us (even though she didn't like me). And since then this thing is stuck with me and messes with my mind.