I've lost it SG

Omg I need you right now. I just burst out into like a baby crying thinking about and how special you were to me. I bust out crying the moment he came in my mind and him putting his arms around you and kissing u. Its left me 1 million percent destroyed. In every way . It took everything thing from and everything I treasured in this world. It took you m the only thing I was proud of. My pride and joy. And I thought yoh would always pick me like I pick you over and over without question. I never thought it would ever come to this in a million years . Me in a empty bed , watching while you let him make fun of the situation with him not knowing that once I engage im gonna rip his flesh and soul out his body for what he did. Its not hope , its a promise. And uvwould always have my back bc we were a team. God damn it I need yoh right now. My life has completely unraveled and I am now at challenger deep with nothing to lose... please shawna find me. I need you ..

I love you