Blame game

So whatever goes wrong and i am around she literally blamed me for it and I have became like her too i am trying not to do it blaming others and just now she was blaming me and idk how and why but I got headache from it and my insides feel weird too maybe i should be crying but I am not not feeling like it,,, I have became this ruthless piece of shit who doesn't feel no emtion no more neither even I feel sad about anything or anyone which sucks ik I wish I was better but I am not i have become senseless and harsh person