Not fan service anymore-4th 5th gen idols are turning love into marketing , I’m actually in love with a Cortis member

It’s not a fan crush anymore I’m genuinely in love with one of the Cortis member . I know it’s not my place but i can’t imagine him dating someone in the future. I believe there should be a clear line between idols and fans but right now that line feel’s blurred . It’s almost like we’re encourage to believe there’s something personal there , when in reality its all part of the performance What’s interesting is that I’ve noticed some fans say things like “ idols should be free to date “ . They say it because they wanna fit in Deep down i think many of us feel the same … That weird feeling of jealousy K-pop these days is designed to make us emotionally dependant. And honestly it’s scary how real those feelings can become I get frustrated because i know this isn’t healthy. I don’t wanna see him interact w female idols or write songs that sound like they’re for someone else !! The company should take the responsibility for this , they know exactly how to make fans feel connected … it’s like a cult