I have gone behind my husband’s back

I have been married for 7 years now and I’m in my mid 30s. Husband works at corporate, have two beautiful kids I love. But my life has mostly been flat from last few years. It has become standard and I didn’t understand where it was going anymore. I stay at home doing nothing after husband and kids leave for their work and school. The romance slowly became boring too. There was nothing I was looking forward to sexually and otherwise in our married life. I happened to discuss these with a friend of mine when I visited her place. She said she knows that feeling. And when I asked what would she do to escape the monotonous life, she said she had ignited her sexuality and it improved her life drastically. She felt more happy and content. She said she was also able to contribute more in the family and keep everyone happy just because she was in a happy place. When I asked her what does she meant by igniting sexually, she admitted she has been seeing someone. Just for sex. I was shocked to hear that. Also felt more curious. She told me a good sex helps her keep going in life and running family. She has been meeting this man apparently in his late 40s regularly for sex and she has no regrets about it as she spoke. She said if we could embrace our sexuality and be more open to exploring it, life could throw lot of possibilities to find happiness. She said she had some inhibitions at beginning but she was glad she took that step. She believed in living her life to the fullest. I have thought about it for few days and asked her if there is anything I should do to turn my life around. She told me she could give me his number if I’m willing to meet. After a lot of thought I decided to give it a go. I decided to meet him on a weekday after husband and kids left home. We met for lunch and he was very gentle and charming. He knew his way around. He said he does this often and helps lot of married women. I asked him if he has some online presence where he advertises himself. He said he doesn’t have any online presence but most of the women he meet are through networking. He said that was the safe option for both parties which made sense. If he was not introduced to me by my friend I wouldn’t have been comfortable. We met a couple of times again for lunch before I invited him home one day. I was nervous. Last time I felt this way was back in my college when I was a virgin. He arrived, we had a small chat, offered him a drink and then we hit bed. He started with caressing my hands and slowly planting a kiss on my lips. I was shivering. The whole thing was overwhelming for me. He told me to ease a little bit. I asked him to lead the way as I was blank in my head. He slowly started to disrobe me and before I know I was topless and he was kissing my neck and chest area. I felt like I rekindled some sexual pleasure in my life. I drew him closer and hugged him tight. He caressed my hair allowing me to be in the moment. I liked his patience and gesture. After that I submitted myself to him. It was the best sex I had in years. I was craving for me. I could see why women meet him. He knew his way around bed and had more stamina than I ever knew a man could have. He was gentle but there was also subtle aggression in the way he performs that floored me. It was exciting to the point my legs were shaking when he was done. I hugged him and probably had a tear in my eye as he tried to pacify me. I started to meet him once a week. I looked forward to the day I could meet him. It did bring lot of happiness into my life. He once called me and told me if I was willing to meet that day. It was not planned but I agreed to meet him. We had sex and he said that someone cancelled during last minute due to some work and he felt like he needed some intimacy. He thanked me for making this happen at such short notice. We were scheduled to meet two days later, but he said we could skip it if I want to. I told him I would love to meet him again. Something changed at that moment, the sex when we met after two days was more aggressive, passionate and intense. I had best orgasm I ever had. He said it was one of the best sex he ever had. It has been 5 months we have been doing this and we have started doing it raw. I feel like I could never let this happiness go in my life.