i hate my kink

You Know when you get kink shamed its bad… im recently discovering my sexuality and have been sexual active the last half year. Ive discovered by trying different things that i have a big kink towards something that isn’t particularly normal. I mostly just read books about it and dont interact with it in my normal sexual life, only sometimes when im alone masturbating. But i have asked multiple times for book recs on reddit and ive been kink shamed by the ‘normal’ community

How do you deal with having an abnormal kink?