Need some advise 🥲

Hi. I’m new here. I don’t think I have depression or try to think I don’t. I have pretty much an easy and pretty good pregnancy. No symptoms or sickness and everything went well apart from my wrist and back hurting when I was on my third trimester. 9 months in and I have a very beautiful baby girl who I love dearly and with all of me and her dad.

Anyway, I feel like what I am being sad about is silly. When I first found out I was pregnant I said I will make the most out of it. I had PCOS and this pregnancy was quite unexpected to be so soon for us so we were really happy. I bought a journal and regret not following the weekly photos it asks. I see women in tiktok with weekly videos of themselves and their bumps now that I am not pregnant anymore and wished I have done that. I kept looking on pinterest and I think it kept my mind on just taking photos. I had an emergency c-section and i realized a few weeks after that I never had a posed photo with my baby in the hospital. I didn’t have a photo of her doing skin to skin with me because i was feeling sick while having c section and my wrist is painful. I regret not booking a proper maternity shoot for myself or doing the 4d scan earlier as when i did it, she won’t show her face anymore as she’s turned in breech position. I regret not taking a lot of photos because Iwas healing and living the moment (even though for some it may seem a lot on what i already have). I contemplated too much on those things. I was so emotional about little things. I feel like it was unreasonable yet i know why I didn’t have much - life happened and it may not as what i thought it would be but at the time i thought i was doing enough. I cried about it for days. I opened up to ny husband and some friends but I guess it eases up and now I’m thinking about it again. It’s easy to say not to but being at home on mat leave, my mind is running and overthinking even past decisions or my mistakes in the past and i resent myself for it.

I just really wanted to vent and hopefully forgive myself for it and not cry about it anymore. Sometimes i feel like no one understands and Im just being dramatic or silly. Just wanted some nice words if kindness or advise really.

Thanks mommas!