Feeling Inferior

I just got an apartment with my best friend. He’s someone who I’ve always admired. He’s better than me at nearly everything, every metric. He’s funnier, more personable, smarter, more conventionally attractive, nicer, has more empathy and just moves through life better than me. He has better taste than me, we always show eachother music and the stuff he finds is always just so much better. He’s good at literally everything and I’m just not..

As silly as it is, our friend group is kinda built around playing videogames together, and he’s just fucking extremely god damn good at every game we play and I’m just naturally trash and no one really cares or tells me I’m bad, but it’s just another thing. Like he is top of the leaderboards of any game we play consistently. I’m always garbage. Even if I’ve played way more of the game than him

We have a great friendship and I really don’t let this jealousy show at all, because I don’t want to ruin anything. But damn it gets me down. I’m really thankful to have such a great friend but I always feel so useless and pointless in comparison. It’s really getting me down lately. Like I just can’t think of a single reason anyone would rather be around me than him.

Not much else to say. I know it sounds a little pathetic but my emotions surrounding it are real. And I just feel like a superficial asshole for even saying of this