My emotional pain is transcending into physical pain has anyone ever felt this?

I can't sleep I have insomnia i feel my chest tighten my body aches ny emotional turmoil is slowly slipping into physical pain. I have no one no friends nothing I am a hideous looking ogre that people at worst mock and humiliate and at best look down with pity.

I'm gonna grow old and die alone not knowing what love feels like not knowing what truly being desired in adulthood feels like

For fucks sake i don't even have friends lol I get ghosted all the time I don't have a soul with whom I can pour my heart out. My head hurts as I'm typing this out.

I keep deluding myself that I will get softmaxxed then surgerymaxx to escape this hell of being a short man but I know it's kinda stupid.

I have a love for life that is very strong I'm an optimistic person I keep telling myself that things will get better and it probably would but whenever I feel down it always sucks.