i screamed and cried in front of coworkers and this old elderly couple eating in the lobby 😎 (no this isn't cool the 😎 is sarcastic)

basically there was a dog in a car in the parking lot, he was super cute and kept looking inside, literally following my movements. at this point i was having a good day, so i decided to ask one of the two groups "hey is that your dog? can i send you out with nuggets for him?!" because he was a cutie and like i said i wanted to spread joy since i was having a good day for once.

i get to "hey is that your---" and that's as much as i can say before she interrupts me. "yeah, it is 😤😡🙄" "can i give him nuggets?" "no. 😤😡🙄" but in the short cunty way, not the nice but no thank you way. every single time i'm happy someone fucks me and ruins it without fail. so i tweaked the fuck out. i shit talked her to my coworker and the more i thought about it the more it upset me because i'm quite literally never allowed to be happy. it upset me because i'm nice and i give and give and give and give and try my best and everyone and everything sucks me dry. once i'm sucked dry people don't even give me the "privilage" to be miserable and or depressed. instead they treat me as though i have these episodes for no reason. they treat me like a monster when i have my episodes, like someone who screams and cries at people ALL the time, when that's not the case at all.

i'm not even upset about it anymore since it happened like 4 hours ago but i just wanna go home and sleep. i coughed just now waiting to leave and some lady had to stare at me hella