24 and no friends

This year Ive been grappling with revelations, changes, and desolation of friendships. As Ive gotten older Ive reevaluated what a friend is to me now and nobody in my life fits that now. None of my “friends” reach out to me. They dont make plans with me in mind. Im having to initiate everything. Im not comfortable confining with them anymore about my problems. Halloween was just yesterday and it’s my favorite holiday and I tried to make it worthwhile. It was terrible. About 3 months ago a guy I was really close with ghosted me and he was the only one who actually wanted to hang out with me and make plans. Thats another story. Im lonely, forgotten, and feel so irrelevant in peoples lives. Im grieving the people from my past who genuinely wanted me in their life. Idk what to do anymore….im throwing myself into work and school. Been doing things alone but it will never equate a solid friendship.