22f might be going insane send help

I mainly talk to myself and obviously I'll agree with myself I have one other friend but it feels as though the friendship is a bit new and we are too polite with eachother, so they agree with me too. I try talking to my family, they agree with me too. It's like I'm never wrong and it's so frustrating feeling like there's no one i can talk to that would honestly tell me what they think. Anyway aside from that rant hmmm I just want to be friends with someone but in a way that we are open with eachother obviously I'm looking for long term friendship but we don't have to be super chatty or close off the bat I'd like to maybe have daily convoy and maybe we could do some activities together (shows gaming etc) as we get to know eachother Tbh my expectations aren't high plus I'm the type of person I see a lot of people on friendship looking subs hate, I'm not super chatty i can't force convos😭 if it ends let's talk tomorrow, maybe ♡