I don't know if mine counts as sexual assault. I don't know how to feel.

My husband and I have been together for 14 years. He cheated on me about a year ago, and since then we've gone back and forth about staying together. We start couples counseling this week.

When we were younger, and when he thought I was asleep, he’d put my hands on his penis. If I moved away, he’d force them there again. This happened more than once. I think he truly believed I was asleep. It felt violating, but I was already pregnant, kicked out of my house, and trapped. I don’t know what to call it, but it still really bothers me.