[F4A] "I'm easy," "whatever you want," and, last but not least, "Oh God please"

These three were basically my catch phrases when I was a little younger. A brief dalliance with monogamy made me think I shaped up, but I think I just liked having someone to talk to most of the time.

It started in college when I wanted to make friends with the boys in my dorm. The idea of living so close to boys I didn't know was really fun, and I wanted to meet lots of different people. But my mom was basically right when she said boys only want one thing. I was willing to give it if they kept hanging out with me, because it made me feel pretty and cool and interesting. During my freshman year I fooled around with 70% of the boys on my floor. Most of the girls hated me, with the exception of the one really sex positive, slutty fun girl who lived in my hall. In her mind sex was about new experiences. For me it was being liked at all costs. Yes, I did hook up with her too a few times.

The boy I hooked up with most often was named Mark, and he was really kinky. He liked to share, too. The boys in my dorm didn't like sharing much, usually, but Mark's friends did. We would smoke weed together and shack up in his room or one of their apartments. Doing this regularly did a lot of damage to my self esteem, but it was amazing for my freaky little mind. Mark got a girlfriend at one point and stopped messing with me. Then his friends' interest in me dried up, too. If it wasn't the thrill of doing something dumb, I wasn't offering much.

My college relationships after that were intense. I'm a pleaser and I went out of their way to do anything they wanted. We made sex tapes, found unicorns for threesomes, we dressed up, had sex in weird places. It wasn't as intense as my freshman year, but it was still eye opening.

I get to let my freak flag fly very rarely now, but when I do it's like a drug addict getting euphoric during a binge. It's dangerous.

Have you ever known a girl like this? Are YOU a girl like this? I love talking about my sexual history and I love getting peeks into other people's views of sexual behavior. Especially when people share information they're not supposed to. Gossip is my weakness. So today I want to hear about your nostalgic sexual experiences and close brushes with behaviors that are not always a great idea. Tell me about "the one that got away" or the one that stayed way too long. I'll tell you about the most fun I had when I've made myself totally available to others, and if you're lucky (and kinky) I'll share some of the things that weren't very fun in the moment but drove me crazy after the fact.

Okay! To let me know you've read everything properly please tell me your favorite kind of street food! And make sure to ask for my name. See you soon, I hope!