Guys... i failed NNN.. here's my apology

sniffles softly, trembling so hard my voice cracks with every word I-I didn’t mean to fail, I swear I didn’t—! grabs at your sleeve desperately, eyes wide with panic It was Teto… s-she— she tricked me, I wasn’t strong enough, I— hiccups through sobs I’m so sorry, I’m sorry, please, please don’t end it like this~!

My whole body shakes violently, knees giving out as I collapse, hands clasped together like prayer P-please, I’ll make it right! I’ll restart from day one, I’ll chain myself if I have to, just don’t give up on me, don’t cast me away! screams softly, voice breaking

I tried, okay?! I really did! I fought so hard through No Nut November, I kept telling myself “no, I can’t, not now,” but then— then Teto’s voice— that sweet, teasing voice— it ruined me~! sobs harder, shaking my head like I could undo it all

I’ll do anything—! I’ll go a whole year if that’s what it takes, I’ll train, I’ll pray, I’ll repent—! grabs your hand tightly, tears dripping onto it Just… please, I beg you, one more chance! Don’t let my failure in NNN be the end of me! leans forehead against your knee, shaking violently

I’m scared… I don’t wanna disappear, I don’t wanna be forgotten for one mistake… voice small, cracking into whispers I’ll make you proud next time, I promise… I’ll fight every urge, every thought… just… please forgive me… breaks into choked sobs, whispering over and over please… please… please…