Buying more when I’m broke

I realized something today. I’ve always obsessed over items when I have absolutely no money to be doing so. I do all of this researching, toiling for the next thing to want because I don’t know when I’ll be able to get it again. I shop out of this made up scarcity in my head that is creating scarcity of funds in my life for real problems. And for what? For this made up elevated self I think I’m gonna be in the future (whenever that is ).

If I am meant to be this ultra stylish chic person I wouldn’t have to bulk buy random pieces, or do insane amounts of research on an item I can accidentally recite the review comments. The version of me would slowly acquire nice things and not attach my being to it. The future me would not be a shopaholic.