I walked away tonight

I did it. She pushed me to walking away tonight. I’ve been working on my behaviours. The ways to not trigger her. I stayed calm when she was having an episode. I’d do little things to make her feel like a priority. Yet she’d move the goalposts and say I wasn’t doing what she needed. Tonight I said I’d been working on myself. She said she couldn’t see what work I’d been putting in. I damn near crippled myself in the ways I contorted myself to fit into what she needed. Yet it was never enough. Tonight she just let loose with a barrage. I let her talk. I tried to say what was needed. Yet she wouldn’t let me speak. So in that moment, I disconnected. Got changed and walked away. I’m pretty annoyed cos we’d ordered food and it was on its way! (She just this second messaged me to tell me it has arrived) I’m not responding. I’m done being someone that gives away pieces of myself to get no satisfaction from it. I’m thinking about packing my stuff up and moving to be closer to my family. They live 250 miles away and I’d rather be around people that truly want me. Cos in the end, I didn’t feel wanted. I felt like I was a convenience