How to feel high without drugs?

I’m sure this has been asked before but I can’t find anything online that actually helps. All the recommendations are like, exercise and read a book, but it never helps for me. It just distracts me for maybe a couple minutes before the only thing I care about again is finding a way to smoke. It’s only been a couple days since my last high, but i can’t barely take it now as it is. A bunch of the tips online just seem to be distractions or ways to feel happy, which isn’t what I want. I can’t bring myself to eat anything and I break down crying randomly every 10 or so minutes. Ik this is probably a lost cause but I just thought I’d reach out and see if I can find anyway to help at all. I’m really sorry if I sound blunt or angry or anything, I’m just struggling a lot