hello my name is Anya and I’m here to tell you all about me. My life is miserable, and I want to tell people before I rope myself

my body is covered in stretch marks, I don’t have enough skin so body is covered in stretch marks

my back, my shoulders, my legs, every part of my body is tainted a sickly purple colour

they make me look like a guy, and that’s all I’ll ever end up being at the end of the day, either that or found overdosed on paracetamol 

everywhere I go on the internet people view me as either a gross perverted little fetish toy or a gross freak invading women’s spaces and threatening their bodily autonomy

if I ever try to express an opinion online I get either DMs from people trying to hit me up or spamming dirty tranny 

my therapist abandoned me after taking nearly £1000 worth of money, he didn’t respond to my texts, he abandoned me

I tried to see a new therapist, to talk about how I feel, but the session was in a church, every room had a cross staring down at me like I wasn’t welcome

I’ve tried to kill myself several times, I don’t trust myself with a sharp knife or pills. I daily think about ending it

I tried to wear a dress for the first time in a while, I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror without crying, I can’t look in the mirror at all now

my ex partner leaked my chosen name to a bunch of people I didn’t want knowing and I had a series of meltdowns afterward

all of my clothes are ugly, I wear baggy shirts and joggers now, I don’t like looking in the mirror

I might end myself soon

- Anya



hello my name is Anya and I’m here to tell you all about me (rant)