Men are gross?

I’ve had this feeling for awhile, basically since I’ve been attracted to men. I identify as bisexual.

Basically I’m not attracted to the bodies of men. Just the penis part of it. I don’t know if this is fetishizing or anything. Just the idea of a bigger hairy guy isn’t attractive to me. I’m 5’8 and slightly chubby, trying to lose some weight. I find it difficult to find a group I belong to because of this

Any advice? Is there a definition to this? Is this post hateful or bashing ? I’m not sure let me know ! .