I’m Lost

I’m 18 male, dropped out at 16 (attendance and anxiety got bad) and pursued further education at a nearby college for 2 years. I’ve never had a job nor been able to get one (endless loop of applying with rarely any interviews), been homeless from 16 to 18 with my parents too (recently got emergency accommodation for 6 months but no actual house yet). I’m so exhausted and scared for the future. My friends posting pictures of their graduation, them enjoying life whilst I’m stuck like this. No future secured.

Sometimes I really think about ending it, I couldn’t care less what other people think. The main issue I’m scared of is leaving without knowing what’s beyond. A better life, or nothing at all.

I’ve been looking at Community Colleges with dorms recently. I wanna leave and start my new life, but it’s $400-800 a week for a dorm. A SMALL ROOM. I have no money whatsoever, it’s hard and scary.