I just need to vent

My head is pounding and I feel nauseous all the time and everywhere hurts. I’m becoming agoraphobic, and I had made a lot of progress with that prior to 2023, but the last few years things have gone downhill again. I’m really struggling to cope. I’m scared to go anywhere in case I get sick or I get stuck (because of pain or something). I can’t afford a wheelchair to get around when I can’t walk, so I’m stuck inside most of the time. I desperately want to lose weight, but I’m so fucking tired all the time and too much movement makes me feel sick. If I move too fast, or too much, I get sick. I feel guilt for complaining but I just need to get it off my chest. I have a severe phobia of vomiting, so during flare ups my anxiety is through the roof and guess what one of my anxiety symptoms is? Fucking nausea. So yeah, that’s a viscous cycle. I’m anxious that I’m nauseated, which makes me more nauseated. I have been getting a rashes a lot also, usually around my face and chest l but sometimes on my arms and hands I guess from touching something that my body doesn’t like, and my nose is always stuffy. Antihistamines sometimes help. I’m constantly unwell and it’s fucking exhausting. I want to spend time with the few close friends I have, and my family, but all I can think of when I try is wanting to get home because I don’t feel well and I’m overwhelmed. I feel trapped and I feel like I’m going insane.