I just lost 150$ over my own absolute stupidity and I hate myself for it

After seeing a friend make 800$ off 150$ over online gambling I thought why not, I really wasn't looking for a huge win and just about a 50$ win would help me pay off my credit card and lighten my financial burden for this month.

These amounts may seem insignificant to you however due to exchange rates they are pretty much worth a ton here in my country, considering I'm just a uni student who has been getting nothing but rejected from part time jobs ever since I got laid off 3 months ago.

I have never gambled before so I decided to put that 150$ in for that "introductory win" and I figured I'd just draw it after that.

Over some partial payments totaling to 150$ I literally did NOT win anything above 150$, not even something that would rush me. It's crazy horrible luck considering how online gambling sites aren't even willing to provide that introductory addictive rush to me.

Yes I'm stupid and literally the stupidest person over this 150$ that was literally half of what I saved up over the past 6 months (exchange rates again) and I have never felt this stupid in a long time. I absolutely accept how stupid I am and not asking for any sympathy over this, again I have never gambled before and this will probably the first and the last time I will. I just feel horrible and wanted to get this off my chest. I know it's my fault. I've just heard so many quick win stories and went stupid mode for a moment and bam I'm 150$ short and half of my savings are gone. Literally nobody to blame but myself

I've looked into freelancing options throughout the day to make the money back and I don't think anything is going to come out of them, I've already sold most of my belongings throughout uni and part time working is currently not an option unless I come across anywhere else I can apply to in my city (as I've applied to them all and got rejected, part time jobs are rare here) . So yeah, rough week of midterms and figuring out how I can make the 150$ back. I'm still looking into freelancing however the rates are so incredibly bad here. I've also been selling art commissions locally but not even a single customer thus far.

I think as a last resort I'm going to sell a game account, it's a game I still love and play and have for the past 5 years but without half of my savings and a job I'll probably die in this stupid dorm in a few months.

So yeah, I just wanted to rant about how fucking stupid I feel and I just want anything but sympathy. Literally even bullying me in the comments is okay so I don't do this again. I hate myself, I've never spent money recklessly ever since I started independently making it and this is my first and worst reckless decision.