I need help, im really tired

It's becoming increasingly difficult for me, because looking at myself in the mirror and realizing that I'm afraid of something, I have fears, apathy, I'm rotting in the room, and not only that, everything is wrong with my mentality and I have no self-confidence, I pressed every day to do push-ups and squats every day doing +1 I need help in the form of hold, because I not only started doing some kind of sport but also spiritually, this is self-realization according to the principles of Dr. Joe Dispenza, the power of the subconscious of this book, but no, it is certainly great, but I found one thing for myself that sounds like this: to get something you want, you don't need to ask and do, but you need to become someone for whom it becomes natural, as if I put a bottle of water in the freezer, so it will turn into ice, and I will become a rock of confidence muscles, and so on.