F*** you

Today I look back at all our messages starting from 2023. And honestly fuck you for telling everyone I was the one to hurt you and being the crazy one in the relationship. You came from chaos that’s gave you Trauma as a little girl and I came from a “innocent” Christian household that didn’t even care about depression so I was left to fend for myself.

You showed me 3 years of narcissistic tendencies with emotional manipulation and control. I don’t know how I saw no signs. I didn’t know it wasn’t normal. You showed me that “love” was apparently that. And I was the one to shut down, react to the abuse of arguments over small things. You literally called me a monster because you showed me what you wanted so I became that and then you flipped slowly after we had our child. Fuck you fuck you fuck you. This isn’t the life I wanted for her. I wanted to be married and actually raise a family with only you. But reading those messages. I realized when you had enough of my supply and went to the next. We broke up September 17th but you been cheating on me since New Year’s Eve. I CANT BELIEVE I SLEPT WITH YOU FOR 9 MONTHS AND YOU WERE CHEATING. I should’ve know when the utis were constantly happening and turning into yeast infections but you blinded me with this happens after a baby. FUCK YOU I REALLY REALLY BELIEVED IT AND I WAS THE FOOL. Yes I had my times where I was at fault but cheating. This is something that you told me would never happened. How are you gonna tell me the story of a family that you want and the lies with it just to go be with a man that shot a gun off next to your head on New Year’s Eve, could’ve taken you off the earth to leave me to raise our kid. You go to a man that tells his own kids to get “daddy’s juice” (fireball). I’m beyond disgusted . You really are taking my daughter over there like it’s some sick joke. You want me to provide and abused me for not “providing enough” but I was constantly searching for your approval until this summer when I put my wall up after a break due to you destroying me, and I came back with those powerful manipulative words you used. You slept with him and came back to me. Atleast you were honest that time cause now I can add up everything from that moment. Fuck you fr I had my walls up this time. And when I had enough you shoved me into a wall. Honestly fuck you. Hope you know he pays for his own baby mamas crack. Fuck you for everything. That wasn’t ever love. You controlled and manipulated me for years and you have officially broke my innocents of a family. You are puttting me thru exactly what my father went thru and it kills me. Fuck you

I’m glad I had time to add everything together because you ain’t having me back.

P.S all the times you told me I wouldn’t find someone as good as you Honestly you won’t find someone as good as me, you may have broke me but you won’t stop me from being the best dad I can be

-you know who it is Fuck you