Unique Mental illness that i cant find help for

I am bad at explaining but happy to answer questions so ask me. And the best person to discribe my problem is from this comment and he says

"Damn that really is a sticky situation.
So you're a man, you enjoy being dominant and are attracted to women.
You have sexual fantasies of being a woman, are submissive in those fantasies and are having sex with men.

Outside the fantasy, you are not attracted to men. But you still enjoy the fantasies of you being a submissive woman. And as a man you do not want to get penetrated but wish to be the one doing the penetrating"

And this is basically it. I need help treating myself.