I want a girlfriend so bad

I don’t have ulterior motive or anything. I’ve never had a girlfriend before. Yeah, I’ll admit it — I guess I’m kind of “incel,” whatever that means anymore. I’m just tired of pretending it doesn’t bother me. Every single time I put myself out there, every time I approach someone I actually like, it ends the same way — rejection. Over and over. I’ve tried so many times that it almost feels pointless now.

It’s crazy how for some people, getting into a relationship seems effortless — like it’s just part of life. Meanwhile, I’m over here working on an engineering degree, and honestly, that feels easier than connecting with someone who actually wants me back.

I don’t know — I’m not trying to sound bitter, I just feel stuck and invisible sometimes.