May have killed my dog after doing a spell for peace, love and tranquility.

Jesus. FUCK.

I didn’t have any lemon balm or lavender oil, so i used lemon-lavender lotion smeared on pieces of paper/plastic around my candle/crystal setup. “A good witch is always innovative!!” I thought proudly.

I thought I stayed in the room all evening but I must not have been there 24/7 like maybe when I went to the restroom my dog must have come in. Because later I found the papers which I forgot to pick up (I cleaned up all the rest of the spell though!!!!! Fucking wonderful) and there was barely any lotion on them.

There used to be a lot of lotion on the papers/plastic. Now there was almost none.

Well it didn’t fucking EVAPORATE.

And my cute adorable dog was re entering the room and when I let her sniff she tried to lick the rest of it. So obviously she licked up what was on the papers/plastic.

During the spell I’d chanted “May my life be blessed with peace, tranquility and love 🥰🥰🥰” over and over again, grinning like a fucking moron.

If my dog dies because of this I will never forgive myself. I think it’s a sign that trying to change my life for the better is not for me. I should just give up and accept the shitty life I’ve always had. I’m sure this post will get removed and I’ll just end up screaming into the void like I always do.