Been months... It's time to end it

This is just a rant. No contact wanted nor needed. It's just to let me last thoughts out.

I am a Muslim and born as one. My predicament is up and down. Whenever I try to get onto my feet, it goes down hill again.

Ive tried ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING. Mosques, loans, zakat places, family, friends. Everything. No success.

Its time to end it. I've contemplated my life for months and months. Tonight is the night.

I am sat outside and a train is the way for me to go.

I just wanted to bleed my thoughts to someone as I have no one else.

Asalaamu alaykum to everyone and may Allah bless you all for supporting me with Duas and kindness.