Sorry a little vent

I got diagnosed at 30. I'm 31. It's been a really rough time. Only my family knows. I'm too ashamed to tell anyone. I know it's my fault. My family has a history and it didn't help that I had a bingeing problem so yeah. I'm just really sad how after working hard in other areas of my life, now with this, my chances of getting married or starting a family is really low. I've never been on a date. I always thought once I've achieved something in school or work, I'll start dating and boom haha only t2d is now interested in me. It's just sad knowing I'll have to go through this till I die. Like I'm always going to come with a a lable of she's great, but..." Id really appreciate it if anyone had some tips or words of advice? I know at the end of the day I've to love myself, being single ks good...etc. I just feel like a defected product.