A little bit of hope!

Hi, this is actually my first post! I've struggled with binge eating for more than 2 years, after a long period of disordered eating since I was 13. I'm now 21! It's been a constant yo yo, from restriction and shedding hair, to bingeing and just feeling so done.

In fact, I write this post after having had a binge. But I do wanna change, I want to be the person I was who was more free, who knew to survive, you need food, not the person who was tracking every single calorie or surviving on a school day with just an orange. And it's crazy, how sometimes after a not so good day, I wish to be the girl who would go hungry during school and throw away the food my mum lovingly made.

But I hope to change that, I want to be someone who knows all food is good, but to be healthy, everything needs to be in modération and to not be someone who's worried if i overeat today, that I have to restrict tomorrow!

I really want to break out of this cycle, and especially don't want this to influence my siblings or even in the future. It's been my own personal hell for years and I know I can break out of it!

I stumbled across this YouTuber called Sierra Roselyn. She's posted videos explaining how binge eating works, better than anyone I've watched before. And, it's given me a glimpse of hope.

And maybe, just maybe I can finally break out of this cycle. Although it's technically the next day, and this is Day 1 [ probably the 100th Day 1], maybe I can finally be free out of this disordered eating.

I hope this goes well! And wishing everyone else on their journey, lots of strength and love! We can do this!