My stepfather was weird…

Okay so hi, I’m new & id like to share my story. My mom met my stepdad when i was like 3 months & he’s raised me since. She ended up having a kid by him in 2014 then he went off to jail for 5 years he got out in December 2018. He was an alcoholic so when he got out it took him 2 weeks until he picked up the bottle again. At this time i was 11, i was aware he was an alcoholic & i used to tell him to stop drinking.

Christmas approached & things got weird… he would walk around the house in his boxers (the corner store boxers that used to have the private area opened) i would immediately look up or avoid that area because i knew that was weird like why are you walking around the house in boxers… i would tell my mom it made me uncomfortable but she would see no wrong in it.

Now the first time something weird happened… i was in my moms room & it was a weird lay out but from where i was sitting you could see the bathroom. My stepfather (40M) had the bathroom door cracked open & he was just watching me (11F) while he was jerking off…. I was so scarred & uncomfortable i couldnt move i didnt know what to do i just kept looking at my phone. I finally got the courage to get up & go to the living room then he asked me to bend over & plug in his charger for his phone. Now this is where I messed up because i knew what he was doing was weird & so why did i plug that charger in???? Idk i really dont. After i plugged the charger in i ran to the couch & i immediately started texting my friends to distract me he then came out to the living room & asked me to bring him lotion, i did. He asked me if i wanted to rub it on, i rejected. & then he told me not to tell my mom & he’ll give me $40…

After that i was uncomfortable for the longest. When i missed the bus i would walk to school (an 11 y/o walking 25 minutes away) just to get out the house.

He started doing it more often which scarred me more. Like he would be sitting next to me on the couch & just whipped it out & started jerking off i started to run into my moms room & i would tell her. She would walk out the living room but she would stomp her feet (i think she was doing that to warn him she was coming) & when she would make it out there he would just be sitting there watching tv… she would come back in the room & tell me he wasn’t doing anything & i was making it up… she would ask me if it was big & i would just look at her like what…. (I wasn’t even looking at it) i feel like she asked me that to see if i was lying or not idk…?

There was a time he chased me in the house butt naked…

There was a time he was attempting to braid my hair & he pushed my head down on his private area…

This happened for 2 1/2 years & I always told my mom she just didn’t believe me.

There were times when he was drunk he would apologize to me for doing that…

I had a neighbor who was an elderly black lady & she was a sweetheart to me. She told my aunts that something weird is going on in that house with me but she doesn’t know what it is. My aunt picked me up one day & asked me if anything happened i lied & then she asked again promising not to tell my mom… i told her it happened once & i told her i told my mom & she didnt believe me. Luckily my aunt believed me & she called my mom cussing her out & my moms excuse was that my birthday was a week away & i wasn’t getting anything for it… so i was lying for attention…. I ended up living with my aunt for a month (this happened when covid started so my aunt picked me up march 18th & my other aunt was gunna adopt me but since the courts were closed down it was gunna take longer) my mom & him broke up so i went back home & she was sneaking around with him behind everyones back… I remember the first time i seen him after it happened he apologized & stuff i just sat there looking…

long story short hes in jail now (not because of what he did to me) my mom & him are divorced about 3 months now… when me & my mom argue she says stuff to me like you wanted to fuck (stepfather) (my mother is very verbally abusive, ive never had a safe relationship with her where i could just tell her things she tends to switch the story or make someone else the bad guy) & i have a question, he is my brothers father so when my mom talks about him i just wanna blurt out he’s a pedophile but i dont wanna ruin my brothers imagination of their father you get what i mean?? Idk what to do.