Ghosted someone for almost 2 years. I did so because I felt guilty about relapsing on certain bad behaviors.

I just don’t know if I could talk to them. I went against my word, I fell back into bad patterns. So I had to run. I didn’t want to confess to being even more of a piece of shit.

I kept them in the requests on discord because I just forgot to block them out of fear..and that most definitely gave them hope I could come back any moment.

They have no answers and I just have nothing to say. I hate myself. And I should.

They email me sometimes and I just feel like trash because I have no excuse for any of this.

I still care about them, but I don’t think they deserve me. I don’t know what to do now.