TW Talking about a Binge

I had my first binge that I forced on my self to feel like shit.

Normally I feel out of control and I can’t stop. This one was purposeful. It’s was to make myself feel awful.

I’ve had a crazy year, loosing my job, breaking up with my fiancé (was supposed to marry in August) and then starting uni (which is good so far but a big change) and my friendship group has significantly reduced. I don’t see people as much as they have their own problems and often cancel last minute.

I can’t help but feel like I don’t deserve to have friends or people around me. I organised a party for today, only 2 people out of 6 turned up everyone else last minute cancelled.

I am seeing a therapist, just started. But idk I just felt like I needed to share with people that might understand…