I dont know what to do with my life, please give me advices, please help me with some words, I hate my mother, I hate my father, I hate this stupid slow brain.

Until my 16 years I was normal, happy person.

But then after diagnose I wanted some things but my mother never gave me a choice to stop and think, I became slow, and to think I wasnt and I’m not still and wont be and think anymore on any level.

I needed some time to plan things, to see what could I do, but I never had the opportunity to stop and think.

Now I am 21, I missed the best part of being young, I am alone, no one in my life, I will never have the opportunity to br able to develop the beuty of my youth again, I wanted to study arts, and now I’m studying social work, the most shitty career I could have chosen, that’s all I do. I just wanted to study art.

I used to look healthy, do a lot of excercise and always at least being practicing some activity, now nothing.

Now finally I feel I can change but now why would I want to, with that shit career and me without the opportunity to look young again.