I wish i were white instead of being brown

I wish i were white instead of being brown

So, I have a 19 year old first year college student here in india pursuing Biotechnology from a local tier college which is not particularly known for it's quality of education but for the large tution they literally exploits from students.

As someone who failed the pre-med entrance exam twice, i decided to go and pursue biotech with plans of pursuing masters abroad but ever since a couple of months, I have been struggling alot with these plans as i think leaving india for further studies and jobs is no longer and option for us indians or brown folks in general, as alot of places either we are not welcomed or we are assaulted at worse and as someone who is pursuing something like biotech while paying a huge sum of money with a non existent job market in india, I don't think i would ever make the money I spent back or even get a job that pays well or that doesn't treat mistreat their employees which is quite common in the small biotech sector of India.

Secondly I am genuinely very tired of myself and my identity, i hate everything around me, the people of my country i distess, the religion, the food, the places, the way to we look, the way we behave, all the stereotypes arnd me and for me, i have a quite a disdain for everything and everyone arnd me, and even me, everything about me and my identity feels like subhuman not only to the people outside but even to the government in power or the upper echelon of our society.

I seriously just want to be a white guy in some first world countries where I am actually treated as a human and not as some disease or as someone who comes from a backwards society or just as a human like everyone else, who has rights that actually translate to them in practice, who can actually earn and get the fruit of their hardwork if they put efforts in their education and not get paid in pennies or mistreated on a regular basis. ( Sorry for any grammatical mistakes, english is not my mother tongue so I may not be as good at conveying my emotions as a native)