AMIAH for subconsciously being mean to my friend?

okay so i know in the title it probably sounds like i am 100% the asshole but PLEASEEEE hear me out y’all. i don’t even mean it like i don’t notice i’m even doing it majority the time. it’s not like i don’t like her either, i do. shes nice to be around, “a vibe” some would say, but here’s the issue: she is so. mother. fucking. clingy. SHE DOESNT LEAVE ME ALONE. it’s like a lost puppy following you around at all times. do you understand how overstimulating that is when i have my designated times for my designated people. in 1st period it’s T, for 2nd it’s B and A, in 3rd it’s A and M, and so on. after a while it’s like GET AWAY FROM ME. and maybe i’m just mean or autistic i don’t know but i feel bad i really do i just literally feel compelled to do it. and each time SHE DOESNT GET THE HINT. YOU’RE ANNOYING, PLEASE FIX IT. oh my lord and shes what some would say a “pick me”. stop being delusional and get ur head down here. nothing wrong with a little of this a little of that but please get ur head on land let gravity take a hold of you please. “nobody wants to be around me” THINK WHY. do we think im TAH