Do you show SH scars to your colleagues?

I’ve been showing my scars in a lot of places comfortably. Especially with strangers. But I don’t change for PE with my classmates. I do it in a bathroom

I’m thinking of doing that. But I hate the idea of my colleagues seeing me through filter of my mental heath past.

I guess it’s my way of being in control. To choose what I want to reveal about myself.

In another way it’s also controlling me. Wanting to influence how people see me is just an illusion I can’t control anyone but myself Also it’s literally controlling my behaviour. Changing alone in a bathroom like a weirdo.

Self imposed fear and shame is controlling me