43 [M4F] Zephyrhills - Married but something's missing

I'm a bit skeptical about posting here, but giving it a shot. I'm happily married but not physically attracted to my spouse anymore, and I don't like that.

I'm not necessarily looking to cheat on them (I am talking to my spouse about ENM, but they haven't committed to it), but more like .. I miss being desired, I guess? I miss getting flirty messages or signs of affection, feeling desired, that kind of stuff. It's hard to explain, but it's not completely sexual, and my forays into online affairs and such have yielded nothing really. I want female companionship, not only a side chick, with or without sex.

I'm kinda short (5'8" short king lol) and chubby, with glasses. I'm a total geek (RPGs, videogames, board games, etc) and not quite vanilla if you catch my drift (I wouldn't mind a "play partner" actually) but I'm a bit shy. I work remotely and live in town so I'm always available (doubly so when my spouse is at work), but I cannot host.

I don't quite know what I want, but I'm definitely missing something in my current situation. Here goes nothing.

Serious messages only, please! I'd prefer to actually talk with someone for a bit first, even meet and hang out before we talk about anything more. I'm not just looking to get laid; I'm looking for a connection