should I get off the internet

my life is in shambles. cutting porn hasn't fixed anything. I've only been getting worse. I feel fine but I'm not fine and I cannot keep living like this. It really looks like the only way I can get my life together is cutting the cord. Logging off the internet for good. Or at least until I have a very good, VERY GOOD foundation in society, as a functioning member and an upright citizen. The man God wants one of His children to be. I know it in my heart, it's been snatching me out of the presence of the present and surroundings lately, conversation and connection too, what's been on my heart. And well, Jesus told us it is better to cut off our hands and feet if we must to keep from sinning. Lord knows all I've been doing the past 5 years is wasting away. Rotting and deteriorating. I don't even feel human. Yeah, I need to log off for good. But how do I gain the strength to do it? I know how to do it, I have the resources to ban it from my presence. But how do I gain the courage? I suspect it'll take me weeks, maybe months til I go through with it. I know it's a jumble of thoughts, hard to follow. my bad. Guess I just wanted to document something. Idk, Lord knows I got time to kill.