Addiction or something more?

I’ve been struggling with this for awhile and could use some advice. I’m a male who identifies as straight dominant guy but I have a strong submissive side and have sexual attraction to transwomen and certain parts of men. A therapist told me it likely stems from abuse I suffered when I was younger and I’ve explored over the years but I always say “it’s just a porn addiction” and that I wouldn’t really be into it if it wasn’t for the addictive nature of porn. I say that but I’m starting to feel like it might just be part of me and I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to fetishize someone or hurt anyones feelings but I’ve been accused of doing that because of my submissive side and attraction to transwomen. Idk I guess I’m just hoping for someone who I can talk to about all this.

Thanks for reading if you made it this far!