What can I do to find peace?

I admit talking to another boy to get him jealous, now he does the same thing and we both do the same thing. I’m sure I didn’t imagine things between us even if it was never official. This boy I like hurts me a lot, and the other one makes me feel comfortable and I’m more myself with him altho I don’t have any romantic interest yet most of my time I am with him.

I just want to find peace I can’t even stop thinking about the one I like but I can’t keep doing this anymore it’s draining me. What can I do for real? And jealousy is killin me altho I started first