Is there something wrong with me? How can I be at peace?

Hello! I'm 24 f and I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety about 6 years ago. But I feel like there's something else or something.

Since I was about 6 years old my Mother too me to several psychologists bc I wasn't doing great in school. I've never been good at school, always felt pressure or laziness to do homework and learn. I could understand subjects and answer various topics but it happened in moments. When it was outside a psychologist sesión or a tutor I could do great and they just said that I didn't have anything, just shy. I still went to sessions with different psychologists through my life but I was always just shy.

Now I've been medicated for anxiety and depression for almost 6 years, I'm scared for my liver hahaha it's been a struggle with dosage and types of medication. So that's where I am at the moment. With work I'm struggling with my character when having to do stuff so now Idk what to do.

There are many things neither I or doctors figure out or tell me (except 1 that told me maybe i was abus** as a child) she told me that but we never worked on it haha. Also she camera to that conclusion based on the fact that I hate my skin, I can't touch it beacause of the texture, how dry it is, etc. It just repulses me. That isn't the only thing I can't understand why am I that way, there's also:

• Hating various noises
• Can't stand the texture of some fabrics in my hands
• I have to ALWAYS listen to videos in the background
• I can't eat almost any meat, seeing it makes me sick, it just makes me remember that is from a dead animal, that we have kind of the same meat I guess? It just disturbes me and I can just eat it if it's fake looking
• I pick my head and some parts of my skin compulsively
• I struggle interacting with anyone, can't get most of my words out coherently or speak too loud.

I could go on, but that is just the most significant and I can understand some to a point like I just want the companionship of videos or etc. But my various psychologist through my life have said it is weird but dismiss them. Idk if I'm searching for a diagnosis, I just want to understand why am I doing that stuff and how can I help it, it really does affect my life but no one seems to care and just dismiss it as if I'm just weird and maybe I am but how can I change???

Have any of you felt this way? I would like some advise in how to go forward with this, I hate it, everyone thinks I'm weird, quirky, dumb or just paranoid. I want to be at peace and have control in my life to help these feelings.