Repression

I have been dealing with some weird feeling the past few months. I've never had a good memory of my traumatic expierences anyway, but recently it feels like my memories of them have been getting even worse, to the point where it feels like I've repressed the memories years after the events.

This is such a overwhelming sensation that it leaves me feeling like I have lied about the entire expiernece as really the only memories I have of it now are the aftermath. I become obsessive over intrusive thoughts that I have lied about my traumas, because my memory of them is so unclear now.

I am going through some general stressors at the moment, nothing too crazy, and my mental health has generally taken a dip over the past few months. I was wondering if anyone else has expierenced this as it's a really distressing sensation.