Ever have or had the chance with someone way out of your league?

This women keeps popping in and out of my life randomly . Tall blond , fake tits , plastic surgery … whatever … she’s hot . We met up for coffee several times , I thought after we met she would block me and think I was gross. I would get a msg hours later and she would say shit like “ I could look into your eyes forever” or “ I do badly wanted to kiss you!” I would tell myself “ ok idiot … grab her and plant one on her lips!” Never happened, I was truly nervous , intimidated honestly how hot she was . However I always would go home afterwards and beat off thinking of her . It seemed like we drifted off then I see she’s got a BF. We would chat … nothing crazy . Then radio silence… oh she’s single and I’m getting nudes again! I’m doing nothing to jeopardize my marriage however I do enjoy what I see . I always tell her thank you! I showed my friends just the DMs and her pics from insta . They are all convinced I have a horse dick that’s why she wants me. I always thought I was average , however I surprise myself and my friends . They want to know my secrets , I dunno I’m being me? Anyway else deal with such things !?