I’m living in hell

I don’t feel safe anymore, my house barely affirms my identity, basically only is referring my name correctly over text as if I’m not the same in person. The house I lived in was an emotional hurricane that only calms down when I adhere to the fuhrer and the chancellors rules. And to think I’m also a furry to which i haven’t told them about out of fear of rejection/punishment. I don’t have any family that I’d feel comfortable staying with and like no friends that’s be able to accommodate me. I’m currently staying in a cheap hotel in London though I’ve only got enough to stay a couple more nights. Idk what I’m going to do after that as I have no savings and currently no job(I have applied to like 100 places alr)

I want to leave this retched country and live somewhere where I feel just a little bit safer but I don’t know where yet alone have the ability to move. I’m scared and alone and don’t know what to do…..