Maybe my past is too dark to be in healing profession. I may have to humbly accept that.

It seems like no later how hard I try to work on my personality, I will always contain this darkness that can likely be unnerving to many potential future clients and no matter how much work I do, it will always be the case. I feel as though I’ve acquired a vast amount of knowledge along my path but I don’t know if I will ever be fit to serve others, unless they can resonate with my darkness and I have the psychological and emotional competence to deal with triggers. This is such a bummer but I think I can willingly to accept if this is the truth if that is the case. This is something I unfortunately notice in the plant medicine community which clearly is different from the clinical field, but it’s also a soul work assisting profession, and I’ve met guides and practitioners who are so sweet and kind but you can tell they are stuck in their darkness.