Does anyone know what fic this is?

"Do you really wish all sorcerers would die?" "Why wouldn't I?" Merlin stared at Arthur for a long time before Arthur continued, "Sorcerers have made my life a living hell. They're nothing more than murderers. It doesn't matter if they're trying to kill me, or if they're killing the great dragon. All they crave is death and destruction. I wish they would all just kill themselves and save my father and I the trouble." OR Arthur tries to justify his father's murder of Balinor. In doing so, he unknowingly makes Merlin turn to suicidal thoughts and actions.

It has a title and author at the top, but I can’t find it anywhere (I’m logged in). Does anyone know if the name was changed or the fic was taken down?