should i get myself checked or oa lang ako

because i feel like there really is something wrong with my brain. usually ang sinisearch ko talaga ay how to focus, how to not sleep while learning, or like how to stop being lazy. Ang rason ko dito ay nagaaral ako ng bagong skill to improve myself. But i somehow just cant get myself to focus on it. Pag may interesting skill akong nakita best believe na I will focus on it for 2 weeks max swerte pag lumagpas and then drop it, undone. Move sa next na nahanap ko na interesting or just lazy around. I was never a master of anything kahit sa hobby. Growing up I had a hard time retaining information. Dati ako lagi nasali sa sci damath but never won dahil pag nagpapractice kami lumilipad utak ko. Wala akong naalala talaga. You have to explain things to me 3 or 4 times, my brain takes time to process information. Sabi ko baka naman bobo lang talaga ako. Pero lagi naman ako nasasali sa top 5 or 10 gang senior high. I dont consider myself matalino, maeffort lsng talaga ako. If i feel pressured best believe i will go above and beyond, i just need time. Competitive ako lalo na sa grades, pero personal lang dahil somehow pressuring myself get things done. My notes are always messy madaming arrow kasi don ako nakakareview talaga. I also have selective listening ata haha struggle sa work to lalo na pag may instructions, kung pwede pakisulat nalang ng detailed e, kasi lumilipad utak ko. Pag naglilinis ako multi task ang ginagawa ko, sabay sabay. I cant do 1 at a time.

But somehow things changed after i graduated, the stressed i used to crave now makes me feel overwhelmed and i just shut down and stop. I am lazy to the point of hating myself. Kakaselpon to e.